Time and time again, I have jumped, wiggled, squatted, and danced around to get into my jeans. Honestly, it looks a little bit like a sumo wrestler getting ready for the big fit. I do not really like lose fitting clothes, especially jeans. BUT my experience, I also NEVER feel comfortable with wearing pants that are too tight. Today, I am wearing jeans that I purchased before Bella was born. Low rise jeans. The size is not necessarily the issue (most days). It is the fit. Post C-section and two babies later, these jeans are not comfortable for me today. Maybe in another season, but not today. Yet, I still wear them!
Why? I feel restricted, uncomfortable, lumpy, and all the things. My self talk starts getting louder and less positive. Yet, this is self inflicted… Confusing I know.
The same thing applies for life. You may be thinking this is a stretch. Another Ashley over exaggeration, but it isn’t. At least, I do not think so.
In today’s world, we get a sneak peak into another woman’s world via Instagram, Reality TV, Facebook Posts, etc. We are inundated with images of what women, moms should look like, act like, talk like, etc. Some of us are told we are too loud, are too bright, too pretty, to wild, etc. All of these create expectations. These expectations drive decisions and actions.
Have you ever found yourself acting a certain way or taking on an emotion that was not yours? For instance, have you felt guilty about going to the gym or not going to the gym and wondered why? Maybe you have felt guilty about how you raised your children, but did not know why? Or maybe you have felt guilty about being a working or stay at home mom and can simply not explain it?
Are there things that you do not share because someone else may think negatively about them? Maybe you are not pursuing your dream because you are fearful of what someone may think?
All of these questions, these mindsets are holding us back from the life we were intended to have. The life that He promised us. The life that is ours. It is not someone else’s. It will not look like hers or mine. It will look like yours alone. It will be beautiful and full of joy!
Who suffers when you are wearing that pair of jeans that doesn’t fit? Well, likely everyone. I mean you will feel awful. You may get agitated and lash out at others. Maybe you mock a pretty mom that looks put together because you do not feel it. Its not pretty.
Who suffers when you are living a life that is not yours? EVERYONE!
The people that you were meant to serve. You were given a gift that was meant to be shared. It hurts you because you will suffer with out sharing your gift. You will not feel aligned and your best self. You may not take care of yourself. Your children will not see you live your joy, so they may not either. Your relationships may suffer.
No one is well served by a poor fitting pair of jeans or a poor fitting life. BUT in both cases, we ultimately have the control. The power to make these changes.
No matter how big your dream is. No matter what that looks like. It is yours. It is beautiful because it is yours. Shine your light! You were given a gift from God and he has a beautiful plan for you. Why would you be ashamed of it? Why would you not shine the light you were given?
Your dream is yours. It is beautiful. It is not selfish. It is not wrong. It is not too late.
You have a life time to get it right. It will not always turn out the way you thought, it will not always look pretty, and it may be challenging. BUT it is yours. It is worth pursuing and it is worth consistently striving for.
Join me in my quest to live my dream, my life, and to serve as the best version of me!
Please reach out to me via email or on Facebook, if this resonates with you. If you are working to accomplish your dream or have ever felt overwhelmed by your light. I am here to help support that light in you.